I haven't posted in awhile because of a family tragedy. It hurts.
As i'm writing i'm getting teary, but feel like i should just type and express myself.
I don't think there is anything tougher.
The day after Christmas in the morning.
I got a phone call I still remember it so clearly.
"Shelly"
yep.
"This is Jeff we are going to the hospital"
Cool.
We will be praying for you and keep us posted.
"Can you call mom and dad and let them know."
Sure Jeff
"I love you"
"I love you too"
bye.
bye.
I went to the bathroom brushed my teeth and prayed the baby would come quickly and that it wouldn't be too long of a labor for Sharon.
(she usually has long labors and i just desired for her to have a little quicker one)
I felt nervous for them this time. I don't know what it was...so i prayed for them again.
A couple hours later.
My mom calls.
My knees buckled.
"No"
"Are you sure"
O'mom.
Time passed, nope i think time just stopped.
"Lord please be with Jeff and Sharon right now."
No one was sure what happened and then it was for certain.
On the way to the hospital the placenta broke and the baby didn't make it.
I flew down on Sunday night to see them in the hospital and to hold and say, "goodbye" to baby "Chloe Sue"
Who is more perfect now than she will ever be here on earth.
I didn't want to let her go.
It seemed so wrong to hold such a perfect baby, but like pastor "Joey" so calmly reminded me this is her earthly shell and she has a new body with God forever. How hard is this to say "goodbye" to a niece you will never see laugh, smile, enjoy allow to braid your hair...o my goodness.
I just cried and cried with Sharon and Jeff.
At the funeral I read the lyrics of a song for Sharon that are so touching.
by Twila Paris
A Visitor From Heaven
"A Visitor from Heaven
If only for a while
A gift of love to be returned
We think of you and smile
A visitor from Heaven
Accompanied by grace
Reminding of a better love
And of a better place
With aching hearts and empty arms
We send you with a name
It hurts so much to let you go
But we're so glad you came
We're so glad you came
A visitor from Heaven
If only for a day
We thank Him for the time He gave
and now it's time to say
We trust you to the Father's love
And to His tender care
Held in the everlasting arms
And we're so glad you're there
We're so glad you're there
With breaking hearts and open hands
We send you with a name
It hurts so much to let you go
But we're so glad you came
We're so glad you came"
I posted some songs in memory of "Chloe Sue"
Please continue to pray for healing and peace for Jeff and Sharon.
Life is so precious and is so short. God is teaching us sooo much each and every day. I just pray that i can be more and more attentive to what He desires for my life on a day to day basis.
"All the days ahead He alone has planned for me and were written in His book before I was even one day old" as well as for Chloe sue (Psalm 139).
We all know that this was in God's plan.
Chloe you've changed my life forever...
Aubrey and Cambria
